ShadowNighthunter

Well, well, well...it's the last month before the end of the year. 2023....Gosh it's been one hell of a year where many times I found myself on my knees nearly broken from life's trials. But, there have been blessings too. After having to quit a scam job and spending months being there for my dad while he was dealing with his health issue, I finally got a job in October as a substitute teacher. I've realized that teaching is something I love, and therefore, I'm working towards becoming certified to teach history/english in high school.

Other blessings include dad's initial health issue improving (he gets to avoid amputation, Praise God). Been continuing to proctor SAT/ACT testing for extra money, and been bonding more with my prayer group friends. Even started a discord server after being inspired by one of those friends haha. I have dreams of maybe streaming games on the side one day, and my friends have talked about maybe doing a podcast in the future. I'm hoping by then I'm able to move out (since to my folks such things are foolish).

Life has been hell for a lot of my friends too, but slowly, blessings have been coming their way including one friend getting married to his beloved <3. I've been happy to see my friends slowly being blessed with needs and dreams coming true ^_^ And me relationship wise? The break-up hit me hard for many months until some revelation and realization through a dream opened my eyes. I realized God got me out of that relationship for my sake, and for the sake for my EX to grow and get closer with him instead of relying on me to save him from stuff in his past. I've gotten over it, and for a while was okay with being single and trusting in God to prepare me for whoever I am meant to be with. But of course, in good ol' Shadow fashion...I fell hard for someone else, and I'm having to rethink some things considering said person isn't exactly living by what they preach. I fell in love with their gentleness and the kindness that is there, and supposedly he fell for me for the same reason, but....well I'm having to re-evaluate things before I get myself seriously hurt again (makes me want to be single forever sometimes, ya know?). I do wish my ex all the best in his life, and I continue to pray that he finds his happiness and healing.

Other than that, been rough dealing with a lot. The stress gets to my folks, and sometimes it's taken on me. Been really rough, and there's times I feel so distant from God because of my overthinking and me trying to figure my life out. That and not seeking him more often for comfort while choosing to game more instead. Nothing wrong with gaming, but...it's only a temporary relief. Been a few dark times where I'm wondering if I'm still me and all, but I'm hanging in there. My friends keep me going. God keeps me going even when I don't feel like He's there, and being able to work again has helped. Heck, I'm finally getting my laptop fixed, so hopefully I can get back to practicing digital art again.

Especially...since I have an alternate version of my fursona xD This one feels more me in spirit more than the others.

This is the "new" Shadow Nighthunter. And unlike what I originally had her as, she's not just a plain wolf. She's a maned-wolf/timber wolf hybrid. How did this happen? Well, her second art piece was done by Thenewtz one night, and I noticed she didn't look fully wolf. Not with the ears, but it gave me an idea that she wasn't fully a timber wolf. Instead, she reminded me of a maned-wolf somehow, and I just went with the hybrid idea (and I love maned-wolves even though they're not true wolves, so it works!). Another realization came to me when I realized that maned-wolves are from South America. I'm half El Salvadoran, and since there are no wolves there, the closest to a latin "wolf/canid" is the maned-wolf. It just worked so perfectly fitting with who I am. A maned-wolf fitting my Latina half, and a timber wolf representing my Caucasian half. It just fit perfectly. And the markings? Well I'm a huge fan of tribal markings, but since I have some Mayan blood and possibly some Oneida blood, it works (also, I never thought about it, but Shadow Nighthunter could be a Native American name I guess).

Overall, Shadow is loving, kind, shy, and a just wants the best for others. A few people have asked me why I have her eyes look as if they're blind and if she was blind (yes, I wear glasses, but I'm not blind haha). The answer is that it's symbolic. That she doesn't judge someone by their appearance, but by their heart. She is empathic just as I am, and just has a lot of love to give without expecting much in return. All the same, she gets pretty lonely, but puts on a smile despite whatever she's going through.

There's more I could say about her, but if you want to know fully, then get to know me (although she has her own worlds too haha. Waiting on a sci-fi commission for her )

I finally feel satisfied that her design has been brought to life. My other version I shared earlier has a story already going on that I'll be working more on when Christmas break starts. I promise ^_^

I hope to get more art of her in the future. Even art of her with fursonas/friends of others. <3

That's about it...other than I'm dreading my birthday coming up in a few days (I'M GETTING TOO CLOSE TO 30 TOO QUICKLY! I WANNA BE 16-18 again! xD )

I pray that 2024 will be a better year. Especially since I hope to be a teacher by the next school year and employed. Definitely hoping to be on the way towards moving out finally so I can live my life more freely and be allowed to be myself more. I know I'd like to be with that special someone, but...(and depending what happens with this guy), I know God will make things happen in His time. Just so hard to trust in His timing, sometimes. Especially with how much I've been going through lately. I just want a man who will help me grow closer to God and grow closer to Him with me, while also accepting my goofy self and being there for me when I stumble just as I would be there for him.

I am hoping to get back to writing again. It's been hard since my ex and I used to write a lot together. I've tried working on some old works, but it's been hard. So I'm hoping the current story for other Shadow Nighthunter will come to pass, and I'd like to write some stories for my fursona too based on interactions with friends ^_^.

I apologize for maybe sharing all this stuff here. Just helps me to write things down, and also just wanted to give an update on things since last time. I love you all <3 Stay awesome. Stay Gold. God bless. I'm always here to listen ^_^

Truly yours in the shadows,

Shadow Nighthunter

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Good evening....or morning...whatever time of day it is wherever you're at. How ya doin'? So, contrary to what it says on DA, my birthday is actually tomorrow (*dreads getting closer to 30*). I never, ever do this for my birthday, but I wanted to ask if anyone could do a request. The thing is, it's not for my fursona, but for a friend's. I have a friend who's been going through a lot too, and he and I have kinda just been there rooting for each other. His Autism has made it difficult for him to have a job, and so he is turning to his dream being a youtuber and content creator. As someone who majored in marketing, I've been working with him lately to see how we can promote his channel and twitch more as well as finalizing his "identity/brand." One of the things he did was come up with a fursona to identify with (also to give my fursona a friend haha).

I really would like to surprise him with some art. I've already talked with one artist about commissioning stickers for his fursona, but hoping I can just get him something nice either as a half body or a full. (although headshot good too).

He created a ref via AI. Only change needed is black tip for tail instead of white, and violet eyes. He is mainly a pc gamer, and plans to do PC gaming as part of his platform.

As I said, I normally don't ask for requests on the event of my birthday cause...doesn't feel right (whoopdy do, it's my birthday...I deserve art (sarcasm, ya'll). However, to cheer my friend up and all, I'd like to get art of his fursona (Thinking the name is Xani...(He's kinda debating a bit, but Xani is his online identity soooo)

Anyways, thank you for taking the time to read, at least. I really do appreciate it ^_^

God bless and with much love,

Shadow Nighthunter